Thursday, September 9, 2010

Door to Door Organics

Well I am chock full of awesome issues these days and I have to really watch my diet.  I have found it next to impossible to get to the grocery store with the two kids to get fresh, healthy fruits and veggies.  Let me paint you a picture of our usual shopping trips.

First, I have to get both kids ready and sloooowwwwwwllllyyy walk down three flights of concrete stairs because Little Man is learning to do outdoor stairs independently.  Yet I still hover around him because those stairs are more than brutal and I can't stand the thought of him breaking something. Half and hour later we are in the car.

Second, the store.  If you have two or more little kids you know that they are never well behaved at the moments you really need them to be.  Forget about checking over the produce to find the best with two screamers and a ton of dirty looks.  So we race through the store and no doubt end up with a lot of frozen and processed foods.

Third, the trip up the stairs.  Because I don't have a garage attached to my home or anything I have to carry the kids and anything else I purchased up the death stairs all at the same time.  So picture a wiggly, screaming toddler, a floppy baby, and several bags of groceries.  I am half way to the nut house by the time I am in the door.

Needless to say I was pretty excited when I saw a Facebook post about a friend who was trying Door to Door Organics.  I looked it up and the price is more than reasonable (same as I pay at the farmer's market) and they deliver.  So no juggling kids and groceries and pulling my hair out just to get nourishment.  Plus, this would ensure that I would eat what my body requires.

I got our first box today and it was full of beautiful organic produce.  Plus, they let me make substitutions to our box so the Hubbs got the avocados he craves.  I am so excited to start making healthy, fresh meals and start feeling better all around.  I think everyone should give this a shot if they are in a delivery area!  (plus, if you search Google, there are plenty of coupons to save you money!)

Have any of you tried anything similar?  I'll keep you updated on what I make with it.

(Today I made a toasted chicken sandwich with an avocado relish for Hubb's work lunch.  It looked so yummy!)

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

The Wednesday Word

Have you ever felt like you were so worthless that not even God wants to hear you?  I have.  I have had those moments where I am so stresses out living on two hours sleep, tripping over toys and laundry, trying to breastfeed a screaming baby while cleaning an explosive toddler diaper, and tried to hold back tears.  I have felt so alone, invisible, and unimportant.  To make matters worse, you run into an old friend who "has it all".  Well behaved kids, a large house with a yard to let those well behaved kids run around in, no financial stresses, and friends/family abound to help when they need it.  Then come the angry prayers of "why, God, do you forget me?  Why do I have to go the hard way?". 

I was feeling this way when I read Psalm 4.

(Passage courtesy of
 1 Hear me when I call, O God of my righteousness!
         You have relieved me in 
my distress;
         Have mercy on me, and hear my prayer.
2 How long, O you sons of men,
Will you turn my glory to shame?
How long will you love worthlessness
And seek falsehood?  Selah 
3 But know that the LORD has set apart[a] for Himself him who is godly;
         The LORD will hear when I call to Him.
4 Be angry, and do not sin.
         Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still.  Selah 
5 Offer the sacrifices of righteousness,
         And put your trust in the LORD.
6 There are many who say,
         “Who will show us 
any good?”
         LORD, lift up the light of Your countenance upon us.
7 You have put gladness in my heart,
         More than in the season that their grain and wine increased.
8 I will both lie down in peace, and sleep;
         For You alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.

I realized that I'm not alone.  Even David felt like he got the short end of the stick at times, but he always had faith that God heard him.  In truth, I know He hears me I just usually don't like the answers he gives me.  I feel like I deserve some financial relief, better health, and a yard.  But God says, "no, no, and no" for right now.  I don't know why.  I don;t know why this is my journey while others seem to have to "so easy" but there has to be a reason. 

I need to be silent and reflect in my heart to who I'm meant to be and stop focusing on what I don't have.  What have I been given?  Healthy children, my husband has a job, a roof over our heads, and family who loves me.  Yet even while I listed those things, I couldn't help but think about the negatives.

Healthy children, my husband has a job (a job that keeps reducing pay, not paying overtime, time demanding, and putting us in a really rough spot), a roof over our heads (with a too-small house we don't fit in that is upside down thanks to the real estate bubble bursting, we'll never be able to get out of it, and carrying two kids up and down three flights of concrete stairs is difficult to say the least), and a family who loves me (but lives too far away and is unable to help me when I really need it.  They are just too far.).

I need to really clear that garbage from my head.  No wonder God doesn't bless me with things I desire, maybe He feels I won't appreciate them.  I don't know... I just need to focus on Him I think.

What about you?  Have you ever felt this way?

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The Wednesday Word

Homosexuality. There is a word that can conjure up all kinds of feelings in a person of faith. Many of us don't want to discuss it amongst one another because we are not sure if we should be "tolerant" or "condemning". Are those really our only options?
I admit, I have struggled with how I feel versus what people tell me is "right". I have sat in my seat at every church I have been to and heard the fleeting mention of homosexuality and that it is wrong, then quickly passed over so as not to stir controversy. So is being homosexual okay? Is it something that automatically sends you to hell? Should I not spend time with my gay family members? Are they all filled with demon like some pastors have suggested? But I don't feel they are choosing this lifestyle, why is it so wrong?

Now, I am a follower of Jesus Christ. I believe in the Bible to be whole and true. That said, I think we really miss the point of the Bible. The front cover does not say: "The Bible. A guide to condemning those different from you and to make you feel like a worthless person.” At least, mine doesn't. I have noticed people taking clips out of the Bible-one verse here, another there, and making an absolute blanket statement. "God says it is wrong". But, does he?

Where in the Bible does it say, point blank, that homosexuality is wrong? And before you start typing passages from Genesis, Romans, 1 Corinthians, 1 Timothy, and Jude let me state my case on those passages. They all refer to rape, orgies, molestation, adultery, beastiality, sex in a temple, sex as part of a pagan ritual, sex before marriage, or purposely forcing sex to humiliate someone. The same thing is said about heterosexual behavior throughout the Bible. God believes these things are wrong and I am right there with Him. But none of them say, "Jake and Johnny became one, living out their lives in a committed relationship and were condemned to eternal damnation." I saw nothing like that. And before you start quoting Leviticus you need to remember a few things about the laws/prophesies in the Old Testament. 1) They were put in place to set Jews apart from the rest of the world to not be tempted and to more easily spot the Lord when He came, and 2) Jesus states in the New Testament that he came to fulfill those laws and that we are no longer bound by them because we don't have to look for the Lord anymore. He's here! That is why we can eat pork, cut our hair, wear blended fabrics, and get tattoos all of which were before forbidden by levitical laws.

Then there are the Ten Commandments. Let's go thru them together shall we?

ONE: 'You shall have no other gods before Me.'
TWO: 'You shall not make for yourself a carved image--any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.'
THREE: 'You shall not take the name of the LORD your God in vain.'
FOUR: 'Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy.'
FIVE: 'Honor your father and your mother.'
SIX: 'You shall not murder.'
SEVEN: 'You shall not commit adultery.'
EIGHT: 'You shall not steal.'
NINE: 'You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.'
TEN: 'You shall not covet your neighbor's house; you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, nor his male servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything that is your neighbor's.'
So we have gossip, envy, murder, adultery, lying, disrespecting your parents, swearing, and not worshiping God. Where is the commandment about which sex we are allowed to marry? It isn't there. God was very specific with his very basic commandments for us all to follow. I don't think He would leave something out just to confuse us. I think it wasn't the issue we are making it now. Where are the picket signs that say "God hates gossipers" or "You like this bracelet? That envy will send you to Hell?" or other ridiculous nonsense like "God hates Gays". We have all sinned and fall short of the glory of God, have we not? We have all failed to honor the commandments and we are all forgiven. There is no single sin that in an automatic sentence to hell, nor is there a clear cut passage that even states that homosexuality in and of itself is a sin.

Plus, in the New Testament when Jesus was asked which of these commandments was the most important to follow he said to love Him with all our hearts and to follow Him. He also says that the ONLY way to get to heaven is to have faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord, Savior, and Redeemer. There are no works that will get you in and no sin that will kick you out. You either believe or you don't, the rest is obedience. That is why His sacrifice is so important. He died to cover all the sins we commit on a daily basis so that those sins are not the basis of our salvation.

Now you may say that there are no passages showing a committed/married homosexual couple or courtship in the Bible so it must be wrong. True, I don't know of any but there also aren't many passages about a plain heterosexual couple that just love each other, the end. All the passages are about struggles, obedience, finding the Lord, and loving each other despite ourselves. There isn't much in regards to romance either way, just how we should treat our spouses.

I beg of you out there, please think twice before shunning someone based on whom they love. If they profess to be Christians, than absolutely hold them to God's standards as listed in the commandments as well as not raping, molesting, having orgies/sexual rituals, and not having sex before marriage (or, I guess commitment ceremony as the case may be) whether they are gay or straight. If they do not profess to be believers, than regardless of their orientation you cannot hold them to God's standards that they don't subscribe to, only the standards of the world, which is who they belong to.

So, yeah, I'm going to say it. Homosexuality as a sexual orientation is not wrong; it is not a sin. God loves them just like he loves me. Just like he loves you.

I really hope to hear your thoughts on this one. I'm human and know very little, I could be wrong...